August 22 2011

The title of my blog is based on a classic National Film Board of Canada vignette called 'The Log Driver's Waltz'...View the log Driver's Waltz ... this vignette taught me two lessons: marry someone who can help you get over the tough parts in life and you learn from every bit of 'white water' that comes along.  I feel like every few weeks I have to jump deftly from one log to another, just barely falling off the last before landing solidly on the next, knowing full well that the one I landed on will soon be my enemy too... I feel too like every successful jump makes the next one a bit easier.  That is why my Blog is titled Log Rolling Through Life.  It is what I do.  It is also what my family did to survive for hundreds of years.
Right now the rolling mostly has to do with dealing with three kids in three different age categories who are all chronic complainers.  Just finding an activity we can all do is a challenge, let alone doing it without someone being a (excuse the language) turd about it.  But we're learning.  We've discovered that they all like activities where they can run, swim, or buy new stuff.  We have also discovered that Josh's nap is a blessing because we would kill each other if we had to do anything together past 3 pm on a Saturday.  I know that as Josh's burgeoning language comes in fully this will become easier and we will be able to do more but for now I am desperately trying not to wreck my older kids short childhood's by doing nothing they like while simultaneously trying to do things Josh likes so he doesn't scream.  Log rolling.

I am gearing up to work fulltime in September for the first time since I  lost my parents in 2008.  Since then there has been depression, or anxiety, or both, that have kept me back.... but being weaned off meds and some self esteem improvement has made me feel like I can do it again.  I am excited about it and excited about life being about me for the first time in a long time too.
We bought James a guitar and he's actually not bad

This year he gets extra curriculars (cubs and guitar) and Jon does not (Jon's choice he'd rather just do paint ball.... he's in gifted I figure that takes care of the intellectual development part.....).  

I can't write more than this short intro today.... will post more as time allows.